I officially ended it last night. He IM'ed me around 8 saying he was leaving school and to call if I needed to talk. I didn't need to talk, but I called anyway.
The conversation was strange and awkward, full of pauses and half-started sentences. He asked what I was thinking, so I said, "I'm thinking we should go our separate ways."
There was a long pause. "I thought maybe we could work things out. Maybe I wasn't clear last night ..."
"I understood what you were trying to say. I'm never going to want a non-monogamous relationship. And I can't make you, and you can't force yourself, to love me. What is there to work out?"
There was another long pause.
"Why don't you take some time to think about it? If you come up with a solution, I listen to it," I said.
He's supposed to come over today to return my house keys. And that will be it, I guess. We have plans to meet friends on Sunday afternoon for the National Opera's free simulcast of "La Boheme" on the Mall. [Look! I made plans.] I don't know if he still will come to that or not. I'll find out today.
It's not like I hate him or anything. In fact, I'm glad he was honest. It's much better to know this early that he wasn't happy rather than walking in on him with some long-haired 20-something with bad skin 13 months into the relationship.
Anyway, thanks for all the supportive comments and email.
And for the chats.
And for the love.
*big hugs* and *smooches*
PS. Send more bourbon.
PPS. Scroll down and read about the AIDS Walk.
PPPS. Could someone tell me if the link to my donation page works for you [It's the "Click here to donate" link]? When I click it, I am sent to my login page (which could be because it knows it's me? Or is everyone sent to a login page?). Thx.