Groceries from Whole Foods: $14.83
Ride-On Bus Home: $1.25
Uncomfortable Dinner with Pseudo-Ex: Priceless
I marinated grape tomatoes and cucumber in a homemade balsamic vinegrette, which used basil from the front yard and parmesan cheese. I tossed them with a bag o' salad.
I made a pasta sauce with diced tomatoes, yellow bell pepper, onion, garlic, grape tomatoes, mushrooms, and Boca crumbles.
Mike arrived as I was mixing in the twistypastabits.
Dinner was served. There wasn't much conversation. He talked about a movie he saw the previous night. I rambled on about my trip. Our words skidded across the surface like water striders.
Meal finished, I showed him where all the cat supplies were located. We sat back down at the table.
"So, how are you feeling about things with us," He asked.
"I'm adjusting," I said.
"Do you want to throw daggers at me? Are you mad at me?"
"I told you the last time that I wasn't mad. There's no reason to be mad at someone for being honest."
"Well, people's feelings change over time."
"True. But I'm not mad. I think I'm more upset than mad."
We babbled on a bit more. I told him I thought it was a mistake for me to get involved with him so soon after John, that I'm not sure if I'm upset about John or him or both or what ... And I need to sort all of that out.
Mike said the biggest thing he is thinking about is why he isn't able to form lasting relationships with men who are "relationship material," why he dates and moves on after only a few months. I asked what he was doing to try to answer that question, and he said he was going to some seminar (Landmark?) to work on it.
The next question was forming on my tongue when he said, "There's the bus!" and ran out the door. I guess it will remain unasked for awhile ... except here: How do you know you want to form a lasting relationship?
How does anyone know?