Sunday, April 12, 2009


At the mall at Pentagon City, quite unexpectedly, I ran into John. We hugged. He smelled good. He looked good. OMG. He looked great ...

We didn't talk long. I got his phone number and made a promise to call.

And all the feelings I had for him bubbled back to the surface. Since this afternoon, I've been playing back my decision to end it. Maybe I acted too hastily. Maybe I didn't think it through carefully enough. Maybe I over-reacted.

Maybe I didn't. Maybe I made the right choice. It felt right at the time. If hindsight is 20/20, I think I need to see an optometrist.

On the metro ride home, I realized that I've forgiven him. The hurt is gone ... or at least it seems to be. And, maybe, I dunno. Maybe we can forge some sort of friendship out of this mess. I don't want to be in a relationship with him again (for sure), but I miss him. The ache is still there.

And, now, I'm off to cry myself to sleep ... sometimes that's a good thing to do.


  1. You totally did not overreact. Really and for reals. He didn't just break your trust, he sledgehammered right through it and drove a semi through the hole. People are justified at being incredibly pissed when this happens. And so you were.

    Also, hugs.

  2. Hugs. You deserve better than that, darling.

  3. Don;t look for a relationship. Sorry to say this, but you'll only open yourself up again for the inevitable. Rather than repeating old mistakes, at least give yourself the chance to make new ones.

  4. Oooh, that's a frustrating nasty feeling. You are better than a cheating cheater, no matter how hot he is. You deserve better than a cheating cheater.

    I hope he's sitting at home thinking, "damn, Vuboq is looking good. I was an asshole to be such an asshole to him."

  5. anne marie in philly4:52 PM

    if the cheating cheater cheated on you cheatfully once, he will do so again.

    BTW, whatever happened to CNTBD?

    PS - word is "losts"; does that describe VUBOQ? don't want to see you hurt again, hunnybear.

  6. me no wanna see you end up badly with anyone! Try a Peanut Butter martini with your easter eggies and smile....better Peeps will come along! Happy Easter!

  7. People are missing the point that you are just looking to have him back in your life as a friend. I think that is mature and wise of you. Tread slowly and carefully, but I think there is nothing wrong with testing the waters to see if some amicable relationship can be restored. Ex's can often make great friends.