Good morning, my fair kittens.
Are we all recovered from the long weekend?
I did learn a few things:
1. Drinking doesn't make me happy.
2. Shopping doesn't make me happy.
3. When I've been dating someone for awhile, I need validation of my existence from that person.
As for Number 1, I noticed this weekend what could become a disturbing habit: When I am concerned, stressed out, upset, one of the first things I do is make myself a drink. This does not seem to be a healthy coping mechanism. I'm not saying drinking is bad, but drinking should not be an emotional crutch.
Thus, I'm going to be taking a little Alcohol Vacation starting June 1 (I can't start immediately, b/c I still have some box wine* in the fridge). I'm not sure how long the Alcohol Vacation will last. It will be at least 2 weeks.
As for Number 2, I did a fair amount of shopping this weekend. I bought a book for the nook. I bought some workout clothes. And, I bought a new pair of shoes (these). I am still emotionally unsatisfied.
And, for Number 3, people have called me high maintenance in the past, with which I strongly disagree. However, I do feel that if I've dated someone for, y'know, 6 weeks or so and spoken on the phone nearly every day during that time (except when that person become seriously ill), I have the right to be a little freaked out/worried when I don't hear from him for 4 days (and counting). So, I need contact and communication. I am ok with that.
And, I am still worried about J. Every day, I think "maybe I will hear from him today." I have no idea what I will say to him when (if?) I do hear from him other than that I was worried about him. And maybe my expectations have been too high. I am working on lowering them.
Other than that, not much to report. I had a fun Boozy Lunch with Tomokito and SCGB on Memorial Day. I went for a 3.5 mile run in the heat. I did not die. I cooked an experimental dinner. It was edible, but not superdelicious.
Today, I don't know what I am going to do after work. I'll think of some way to fill my evening.
Have a great day!
*No judgment. Box wines are improving. Srsly.